Hmmmmm

So, I may be kinda fucked. With my new job, I have completely slacked off on my school work, concentrating instead mostly on work. The problem is, now the end of the quarter is here, and I am way behind. I have been up all night trying to salvage any grades I can. It really all depends on one professor. I have been behind for the last 3 labs, since I just cannot seem to get them working. Part of the problem I am having is sheer frustration. I am not used to any class that has a lab that I cannot accomplish in the time allocated. Since I am having trouble, it kinda makes me not want to do it. I am so close to graduation though. That is the craziest part. These are the times I wished I had not completely screwed myself my first two years of college. I am still attempting to dig myself out of the hole I dug myself, so I get to walk the tightrope every quarter, with very little wiggle room. If I fail so much as a single class, it will likely be a year before I can return to school. Granted, at least my job has some room to grow, so even if I do manage to get myself kicked out of school again, I will have that. It would be nice to have a degree to fall back on in case this job doesn't work out though. Son of a bitch. I am so unbelievably pissed at myself right now.

On a happier note, I have actually made it out to ride several times over the past couple weeks!
I now have a new favorite horse. His name is Kaliber, and I think the reason I enjoy riding him so much is that he reminds me of riding Gatsby, the thoroughbred that I have ridden quite a bit, but without the craziness he can display at times. I have to say, having a thoroughbred decide to take off on you is quite the adrenaline rush. I actually did have Kaliber take off on me for a few steps, but since he is not exactly a racehorse, it was fairly easy to control. He is also the most sensitive horse I have ridden. He seems very responsive to my admittedly novice cues, and at times, almost seems to just know what I want him to do. He may end up getting sold this spring though, so I don't know how long I will be able to ride him. Maybe I can convince Hope to keep him....